I feel really fortunate. Always receiving things I don't ask for. First it was the crumpler bag. Now it's a free ipod from my brother that he won. Sometimes I find it amazing. I don't really have to go after such things or even think about having them. If they are stuff God wants to bless me with, it just comes.
Sometimes we might feel that God's trying to play hard with us. We ask for things to happen, things to fall from sky but sometimes He just won't make them happen. Surely we should know His foolishness is greater than our limited wisdom. He really does know what is good for us. If he's so willing to drop bonus items from the sky for me, surely he's willing to give us the best. Just that sometimes, what we want Him to give us are not the best for us, therefore He doesn't give yet.
After you read this post you might go: yeah yeah I know...I've read this stuff from emails. But think again...do we really know this stuff when we are desperate for something? Took me many experiences in life to really learn that He really does give us the best, even when things seem screwy.
To ppl who might wanna buy me something: Haha don't all chiong for fragrances and wallet...I don't want to have to choose between 20different types. Actually don't need buy lah I write for fun one. But the drum not write for fun lah! I really somehow need one in my house. My teacher's killing me for my lack of practice cuz I have no drumset at home. So...*ahem* ya know what to do! Heh heh heh! Kiddin! Best is don't buy anything for me. Because that way, the only gift I can expect from you is that you will stay by my side, be my friend, be a good support in my down times. That's more than enough for me. I don't wanna die remembering your gift collecting dust in my cupboard. I wanna die remembering how you've brighten me up when I was still alive =)
10:48 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Wish List-
Lol ever wondered why my blog doesn't have a wish list? cuz I only put it up during my birthday period! hohoho! I'm not trying to ask you guys to give these stuff to me. I can live without them. But I know sometimes it's difficult to get something for another person. So *ahem...I'm here to help..(so thoughtful right)
Wish List: Fragrances or eau de toilette (my adidas no more already) Leather wallet (my coins have been dropping everyday) Good computer speakers (I really hate my $20 ones...they spoil my music collection!) Levis jeans (I am wearing the same pair of jeans everyday!)
Monster Wish List: Drumset! (need to practice man) Digital Camera (Actually I rather have drumset) Computer CPU (Actually I rather have drumset) Flat screen panel (Actually I rather have drumset) Ipod nano (Actually I rather have drumset) Gibson Les Paul Custom (Ok I don't want drumset already) HDB Flat (Ok I don't want Les Paul already) 10 Bars of 24K Gold (Ok I don't want HDB already) 10 maids 8 servants 10000 body guards (Erm...Gold still better!)
okokok....end end end...the list's getting monsterous. But anyway, If ya feeling broke just don't get me anything lah alright. Save up that money, for 20years. AND BUY ME THE HDB!
Less Is Better, Zero Is Best.
These months at work has really made me thought alot about my future. What do I really want to do when I grow up? It's a late time to ask such questions because I am already at "adult" stage whether I like it anot, whether I am ready or matured enough anot.
Hmm...but atleast I know I can use something I've learned this week to guide my future path. "Less is better, zero is best." The less you have, the more you treasure. The less you have, the more you can identify what's important to you.
At my workplace, it's already christmas. Christmas trims baubles stuff toy santa and christmas socks are all over the place. We've already prepared what we are gonna sell and what we want to show people for christmas. We even prepared magazines featuring the items that one can buy for christmas.
I see the people around me work day in dy out. Non stop. No life. Just work and work. They're succeeding. They are producing really nice publications and christmas designs. They came up with slogans like "christmas, a season to love, a season to celebrate" But, they have no time to love and they have no time to celebrate.
They have too much. Too much work, too much meetings, too much social activities. They even have too much celebrations. But they don't know what they are celebrating for. They only know it's christmas so must all go high together. But they do it cuz every1 else's doing it.
How I wish for them sometimes that their world is zero. When they are zero, they can see the truely important things in life. When they are zero, humanity steps in and we will all embrace each other in love. Somehow many people embrace each other, but there's no true concern or love.
So I ask myself everyday: what can I do to help?...I think I'm getting the answer.
8:56 AM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Dear O Blog-
Dear O Blog, sorry for leaving you and your readers here on the cold shelf. Phew such long time since I've gotten a chance to blog. Been really busy these days. And will be busier next week.
Lets talk about work. Haha work's so boring sometimes, I don't even wanna talk about it. Basically I'm in a big company doing stuff like a small fry. I'm perfectly fine with doing easy and lousy tasks like data entry. But I'm not at all ok with giving me work to do to occupy me..and later see my work end up in the bin or something. That did not exactly happen, but somewhere along that line. That's how I'm treated at times. And I'm kinda quite pissed really. But oh well...it's a very real side of life, gotta face it.
The thrill and excitement of a new company and meeting new people slowly died down...and now the "true colours" are floating up. Beginning to feel alittle sick of the corporate world. But I think it's a good exposure for myself. If you don't see ugly politics, ugly people and ugly things, how are you going to love this ugly world for what it is? I want to learn to love this world. Though much of the time I really think many modern people are living in their own illusion or "matrix" world. Originally, humans work to support their life. Their child , family and friend's happiness, interests, passions should be their life. But while working so hard, they somehow lost and forgot the reason they started to work.
So...they began to do the opposite. Instead of working to support their life and the things that are important to them, their work becomes the reason for living, and the work become their important things. How foolish.
So much to say but really tired...hmm...oh today went for another nice (expensive) dinner with darryl song lee @ limjui and matthew's workplace. Haha...if you wanna know go ask them where's that place lah. For those who dunnoe them...lol...sms me and ask lor...(I know pam will scream at me when she sees this lol) <-- for those who dunnoe who's pam can also sms me to ask lor (I know everyone reading this is either confused or waiting to scream at me already) LOL
After that went with Limjui aka KOH and darryl and john to starbucks. Warm chocolate cake rocks totally. ugly pie wasn't ugly...it tasted nice infact. Why the heck would they call it ugly pie? never liked starbucks terms...so act cool...wad tall lah...wad grande lah...AIYA...JUST SAY SMALL MED LARGE LAH! wad ugly pie...so beautiful still call ugly pie! They want ugly pie tell me lah, I bite one mouth 1st den put back...den will become ugly pie lor...heh heh...
Today was a good night lah..but the day at work basically kinda just suck. Oh well..it's over! haha...looking forward to the things ahead next week. If I'm free den I'll tell you all more about some wonderful lineups next week. I really dunnoe wad to blog...too much to say. If you want to hear anything from me or my views on anything just tag me lah ok! bye!!
